Be still yet again

Last night, I felt the urge to pick up a book that I have had for some years written by Alex Ross on the psalms. As soon as I opened it, there it was again, "Be Still and Know that I am God". You would think that I had got the message, but God is ramming it home to me and I am so thankfull for that as I am a numb skull.

I await to see what he will do.

Zacheriah and Simeon and me

Yesterday as I got out of bed, I prayed and was honest with the lord. I told him that this would be a day of my unbelief, please help my unbelief. At devotions it was about Zacheriah and Simeon. Zacheriah had prayed for a son, and now he was old and there was no sign of recieveing a son, yet the angel told him that he would have a son. Zacheriah did not believe. I am at that point where I am so advanced in years that to get what I pray for seems impossible, and yet......

And yet God promises to answer prayer.

Tomorrow I will take a risk and lauch an initiative of sending and email that I have drafted over a number of weeks that contains a lot of gospel truth. I am sending it to the person I pray for. I also took a tract off the church table a couple of weeks ago. I plan to send it from Dunfermline to the same person. I pray that both of these things will make an impact and lead to her salvation.

I am like Zacheriah. I pray and in the past have had to accept a lot of no no no from God. On reflection this was wise, but now I am getting up in years and time is not on my side. I desperately want this with all my heart. looking at previous entries, I am reminded of the card I got earlier in the week with the verse. " the Lord has heard my supplication" from Psalm 6:9 Zacheriah was told, that the lord has heard his prayer. Oh that God would answer me quickly.

Carol Service

Last Night was the Carol Service at the Welsh Chapel. To be frank, the sermon was all over the place and I could not pick out a line of thought that connected everything. However there was the theme of waiting upon the lord. In my case it is waiting upon the lord to do something in my life. I want a certain party to get saved and then handed over to me.

This morning in devotions, we looked at Luke chapters 1 and 2. The characters here are Zacharia and Simeon. Zacharia was given the promise of a child, but did not believe it. However he and his wife were very devout. Simeon on the other hand did believe the promise he had been given and looked to the future. At the prompting of the Holy Spirit he went to the temple and saw the christ and thanked God for it. I am more like Zacharia. I pray, I believe, but some mornings I wake up with doubt and have to ask God to help my unbelief. I just found what was said particularly this morning such an encouragement to go on.

David and Coliath

Today is the last Saturday before christmas and I feel empty again. I know why I feel this way and the only good thing I can say is that at least it makes me pray. I can also see God heming me in to go the way that he wants and that I will gladly do, but it is so difficult. I sent a certain person that I pray for a calendar. I also plan to send a tract that I took from the church table. Before I do that , I plan to send an email that like the pebble David used to stike Goliath I hope will deliver a knock out blow to my situation and I pray that the track, like Coliaths sword will deliver a final Killer blow that will result in someone being given the gift of faith.

I am a about to go out and deliver the same calendars around a nearby hamlet.

psalm 6 verse 9

Yesterday, I received an email informing me of a death. I decided to send the bereaved a card. I got one from a colleque, however the words inside it seemed to speak to me. The intention of the card was for me to let the bereaved know that I am praying for him and his family. It said "Praying for you, especially at this time". However, also quoted Psalm 6 verse 9, " the Lord has heard my supplication; the Lord will receive my prayer." I am praying for a certain person to come to the Lord. Is God through this saying that he will do it.

Last night I was out at a Robin Hood Play. There were things in it that struck a chord with me, ie Frier tuck going of reciting the lords prayer. (It was used in Gaslight) and also the use of the word SOON which I have used a lot in prayer recently for this person I am praying for. I also find in my notes that God can ask me to do things I do not understand and what I have in mind is barking mad but a friend whom I talked things through with assures me that I am not mad.

I watch and wait.

An Empty Vessel

Today I feel such an empty vessel. However, that only motivates me to pray. I need this aching void in my life filled and only God can do it. I know only too well if I try to fill it myself, all my efforts will end in failure.

soon

I am praying for a certain person to be saved soon. There is more to it than that, but as this is open to anyone, I will not say more. The interesting thing is to see things from Gods point of view, here am I praying for someone to get saved soon and the final chapter of the bible is full of how Jesus is coming SOON.

It is as though I am desperate for him to do something soon and he is desperate to do something for the whole world soon.

BE still again

having looked at the Psalm that says "Be still and know that I am God". it seems to me that God is speaking to the nations. However, in the past week, this has come to me three times and I am asking myself the question, is this what God is saying to me?

Be still and know that I am God

I had the courage to start communicating my feelings. I think that a point has come now where I have to be still there are things that I cannot do, only God can, and now I have to wait and see what he will do as I pray. I also need to avoid distractions that would lead me into sin to get what I want.

Jesus was tempted to take the short cut to do Gods work. I have discovered that there is such a thing as an evil short cut to get what I want. I therefore need all the more to pray that I will not jump into sin. That I will allow the lord to have his will and do what he wants to do.

Being still is an active thing. It is trusting in the Lord.

The weekend and finding a good woman

I am going to Dunblane for the weekend to the Scottish Wycliffe Bible Translators conference. I hope to have a discussion with a certain man here about my need to find a wife at my time of life. He had the same experience until he met his wife. I am praying God will do something for me. I believe he is doing something that I as yet cannot see.

Faith

Today we looked at thewoman caught in adultery who was brought to Jesus, and seeking to trap him they asked that as this woman was caught in adultery, what had he to say about stoning her as the law of Moses commanded. Jesus wrote on the ground and said, "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone". One by one they left and Jesus asked the woman if there was anyone left to condemn her, she said no, Jesus said, "Then neither do I condemn you, go and leave your life of sin". Is that not wonderfull?

We also read all of Hebrews 11. This is about Faith and for that woman to be forgiven, she had to be given faith. All of Hebrews 11 is about faith. I am praying for someone to be given faith.

The future is the solution

At devotions this morning, we were given some bad news that I will not repeat here. However we were also reminded that in the bible, God reminded the people of Isreal of how he brought them out of Egypt. They were also looking to the future God had for them. Next years Teen St is entitled,"Impossible" Without Faith it is impossible to please God. This is a word that I have thought of a lot recently as I ponder my own longings. I have said to the lord that it is Impossible for me, but I also bear in mind that with God all things are possible. I need to e honouring him and concerened with my sin. Just as the people of Iseal looked back to see Gods faithfulness so that they could look to the future, so I need to do likewise. The future is just as much a part of solving the present as the past is. Indeed if I am dominated by past failure, it will overwhelm me.

Down in the doldrums

It is amazing how the human heart can go from one thing to the next. I can be high or low. On Monday after devotions, I was high, today after reading a certain email I am low, so what is it that I trust in. Do I look at circumstances, or do I trust in the lord. I am praying for someones salvation and also for the biggest personal thing I have ever asked the lord for all my life and I need guidance, wisdom and I have asked God for whatever he is going to do, to do if quickly as I need it. I have no idea how my prayers will be answered.

Devotions

It is Monday and this mornings devotions were about confidence in prayer. It covered everything that I have been reading and thinking about on this subject lately. it was a good encouragement.

Devotions

It is Monday and this mornings devotions were about confidence in prayer. It covered everything that I have been reading and thinking about on this subject lately. it was a good encouragement.

On Facebook

I invited a certain man to be one of my friends on facebook. I saw a certain womans face on his friends list and decided to contact her. Lets see if she accepts. If not, then that is Ok. I find increasingly that I need to rely on Gods goodness and his providence in all circumstances. Right now there is that aching void in my life that can only be filled by a good christian wife and it is in that respect that I look to the lord.

Praying for other people

I am praying for a certain person that they may be saved. On Saturday the 8th of November I felt compelled to pray that God would spiritualy awaken her that day. I thought, how can I have the gaul to ask God to do something today? However, it seemed right, so I did. Later that day I came across an article that I have had for many years about prayer, but I had long forgotten the details of that are in it. To my astonishment, it had two examples of people whom God motivated to pray about things that were happening in other parts of the world at that very moment. If God could do that, then there was nothing wrong with asking him to bring about a persons spiritual awakening before the day was out.

Writing a Letter

I write a letter to my supporters as regularly as I can. I came up with the word Jottings as part of the title for it as just like this blog, I jot things down just as they are happening. Today for example I wrote about the workmen digging up the path outside my office to lay the foundation for what will be a conservatory, (Walkway) I was not expecting this today, but as it happened today, I wrote it down. I hope that at least a few will read the letter and from it they may find their way to this blog.

The Noise Outside My Office

Today the work started on the extension to the office. There are a couple of workmen outside my office digging up the path so that the foundations can be layed.

In the wren

I have now seen the article about me that will appear in the village news letter. I find it rather touching. It is rather interesting to read about ones self from someone elses point of view.

A down day

there is a passage in the bible that says, "Hope Deferred Makes the heart sick, but when the desire comes it is a tree of life. I knew that after last Fridays uplifting message I heard on Premier Radio that there would be a downside as I pray ferverntly and today is one of those down days. I pray that whatever the lord does, he does it quickly for I desperately need it.

Sometimes It seems to me that Gods word says one thing and experience is another. The big question is, How much do I really trust the lord?

Persistence in Prayer

I have just had one of those experiences this evening where God spoke clearly to me. I was flicking through the tv channels, when I came across Christian Premier Radio and the subject matter covered everything I have read recently in the bible about prayer, persistence in prayer, meeting the conditions of prayer and praying for things that will give glory to god. I have something specific that I am praying for and indeed the speaker pointed out that prayer in the bible that God answered is always about specific things. He pointed out that we can claim the promises of God, but we must meet the conditions. I found it uplifting and reassuring.

Blessing Scotland

this morning, I am giving a man a lift to the railway station. I pray that he is a blessing to the churches in Scotland when he gets there. I will be saying something about this in my next letter.

Tonights Prayer Meeting

I have just been in a prayer meeting with new recruits. It is wonderfull to see how they bond together. Sometimes long term friendships come out of such meetings.

I myself met a man when I joined and we have remained in touch since.

facebook

I decided to put a profile on facebook and it contains a link to this blog. Who knows who or what is out there in cyber space.

I do not see this blog as a substitute for personal communication. I have done a great deal of that over the years and I intend to continue to do so, but for those who know little about me, then perhaps this is an introduction.

I joined the organisation that I work for having applied for a good number of others and was either rejected, OR there came a point where I decided that I would not fit in and I backed out. I was in recept of a monthly letter from the organisation that I now work for. One day the letter asked us to pray for people to joine the team. I prayed for OTHER PEOPLE, not me to join the team, but the next month when the letter came, it had details about the jobs and I thought, "I could do that", so I applied and here I am today.

the conference

Today the conference for those joining us got underway. It is a joy to see new faces, but it was also glorious to see a couple of old ones and to share fellowship with them for what proved to be all to brief a time.