Wrestling with God

I read last night that Jacob wrestled with God and would not let go until God blessed him. I am wrestling with God in prayer. Will I prevail? I ask this question because right now I am in a state of being disappointed, it is not a lack of trust. I desperately need him to do something for me. I need his blessing. I cannot get what I need for myself. At the end of the day, I need God.

Hemming Me In

I can still see that the lord is hemming me in, and just to confirm it, it has come up in my private bible study and It has also come up at church. When it came up at church, it was in the context of guidance. Sometimes the lord hems us in so that we go in a particular direction. I can see that this is happening to me and I can also see that this path will take some time, but I am not as frustrated, or as downcast as I was. In fact I think I am rather better company than I have been for some time. God is good to me, he has picked me up. I see his love and care to me.

The Great Flood and Salvation

It is just as well that I was at home at lunchtime today. The toilet above my kitchen overflowed and the water came down through the ceiling into my kitchen at the light. I managed to stop it before there was any serious damage. Thus endeth this paragraph on the flood

Saturday night at ST Giles in Wrexham was very uplifting. The Salvation Army played modern music and the soloist was Charlie Green who came second in Britains got tallent. To see so many youngsters in school choirs really enjoying themselves was great.

I did not know that a couple of freinds and their church would be there. I was pleased to see them as I have to go to such events alone. In fact I have to do practicaly everything alone, ie go to the theatre, go to the cinema, go on holiday. One man I consulted reminded me that when you are alone, holidays are not a lot of fun. How true.

macbeth

Last night the theatre had a read through of Macbeth. It seemed strange to me to be sitting in an English town and reading words that were all too familiar to me, but probably not to anyone else. as a man from The Kingdom Of Fife, every time I read the word Fife in th script, it reminded me of my home town of Dunfermline the old Capital of Scotland.

It is a big cast, and there are children in it. If this were a film it would be called a Blockbuster.

How did you know?

Yesterday was Sunday and it was one of those days where I could ask the minister the question, "How did you know"? He didn't of course, but God does. We were studying Acts and the Man From Macedonia. This led to a consideration of how God guides. It seems that God has a revealed will in his word. He also has a secret will. We are to follow his revealed will.

The minister then pointed out that we should pray for wisdom to make wise decisions. Wisdom is something I have thought about a great deal lately. He also said that sometimes God hems you in so that you stop going in one direction or another and you are left with one way to go. This is exactly what I feel God is doing to me. I discovered when I first sensed this some weeks ago that the psalmist was also able to say of the lord, "You hem me in".

It is in trust that I accept that Gods will is worked out in providence and that his will is the best for me.

A note in my bible on quick answers to prayer

There is a note in my bible on Psalm 70 about speedy answers to prayer. I see nothing wrong in asking for a speedy answer, but it is up the lord whether he grants speed or not. The note is as follows

" Think about it. Our world worships speed. Whether it's cars, computers, or dialing the phone, faster is better. But God's perfect timing can't be measured in mph, MHz, or split seconds. He's just not on our time system. When you are pressured and can't get answers fast enough, remember God is not playing a cruel joke on you. He's getting you ready for the best answer."

I may have an answer to prayer. It is not the one that I expected, but it is a good one.

On the same subject I have recently witnessed a speedy answer to prayer. We were praying for our team and one of our members was praying for our IT department and asked for another member to come SOON. It actually happened. Can you believe it? I am so pleased.

macbeth

We get down to working on Macbeth next week. That will be a challenge, but I am really looking forward to it. I find that the theatre brings out the creativity in me.

The final and the party afterwards last Saturday was really good. I do not think I have enjoyed a social event so much for some months.