17 years ago

I am in the middle of listenening to some tapes by Duncan Campbell and in his testimony there is a point where he had left the Faith Mission 17 years prior and he felt that God was saying that he should go back. He was somewhat reluctant. In another tape he talked about elijah and repairing the alter. I want to teach, I want to lead in righteousness, I want to be holy and it is almost 17 years since I gave up any hope of being a minister in the Church of Scotland. I would not apply for the ministry now, but I am at a point where I am considering study and perhaps the lord is saying "Get the matter settled and get on with it."