The devil is in it.

I can see that after yesterdays events a dark period of indeterminate length lies ahead. I think the devil is in it. When I look back on my North Parish days and some of the fixes that I got into I am very thankfull for the times that Gordon J would say, " I see the devil in it.". He was right and not that I am in a situation that is not of my making and indeed after a discussion I had with R, I can see that it is far bigger and more suptle than I realised, but never the less the devil is in it.

We need to be aware of the little foxes and catch them and the tongue needs to be guarded.

I am more sure than ever that the devil walketh about seeking whom he may devour.

George

Humility and forgiveness

Today was a day where I felt sinned against, and lets just say that humility is not strong point with the person concerned. As I get older, I realise all the more why scripture emphasises the need for humility and to forgive one another. In my case, I need to forgive whether I get an proper apology or not.

There have been times when I have had to apologise, back down or just accept things. It is always difficult, but I see all the more the neccessity for it. Christ has to be seen in me

Last Friday

I thought the performance of "The Scotsman and the Man From Florida" went well on Friday. I felt a certain warmth from my captive audience. I love them very dearly and at the end of it I told them so. It was fun being photographed with Kim and Charlie and I thought the Hilda Baker scetch by malcolm and Alison was funny.

He who finds a wife

Today, I got the Scripture Union Scotland magazine. In it was an article that made me laugh and it lifted me. It concerned a man who in his SU bible reading notes in 1979 he found Proverbs 18:22, " He who finds a wife finds treasure and he recieves favour from the lord" That day was to be his first date with his future wife. I hope the lord does something for me like that. I was able to work out from some of the details in the article that he must have been in or around 50 at the time.

He spent 37 years working for SU Scotland.

the party and my testimony

It is the theatre christmas Party tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. I have some bottles of non alcoholic grape juice as I do not drink and drive and I will be doing a turn. I have written a script called, " The Scotsman and the man from Florida". I start with talking about my experiencess of the theatre in Dunfermline. It is in fact the Carnegie Hall. I tell the audience about my childhood visits there to see the scetches that were put on for schools. then I move on to the time that my secondary school performed the Vagabond king. I was in the chorus and I will sing one of the songs from this operetta. I then move on to the night that Jim and I saw, "His Ambassadors" at the Carnegie Hall and the following morning I met Richard. Jim recognised him. We got talking and as a result of that conversation I was saved. I expect that the people in the theatre whom I dearly love will not have seen anything like this before.

Palestine

Today was really good. We had a visitor from Sportlink who works in Palestine. She coaches a mans basket ball team. She also told some grueling stories of how they are treated by Isreali soldiers. I discovered that like me she had been at the shelter. It was there that I met Palestinians and Isrealies. I have been praying for something like this to happen as I realised that it would be a wake up call to a certain person. Evidently I got that right, she was not pleased, but the fact is that christ died for everyone who will accept him and that includes Palastinians and I think that for a Palestinian to accept christ must be very difficult indeed.

It is terrible when a man is trying to take his daughter through a check point to hospital and the soldiers mock him and tell him to touch his daughters bum.

Or when there is a curfue and a 5 year old child runs out to get neccessities like bread and is shot.

If God is grieved then so should we be. We should be very angry.

We should also be angry at the way hamas kills isrealies

We should also support the poor and oppressed no matter who they are or what side they come from.

I was once an enemy of God, yet he has come to me.

P and p and my frustration

Good christmas dinner at the hand last night, but as the theatre are performing Pride and Prejudice and I am playing Sir William Lucas I had to leave early. I am really enjoying it and at the theatre christmas party I am going to do a short performance the likes of which they are not likely to have ever seen before.

I still feel the need of a good believing woman. the sexual frustration is just too much as is the loneliness. I need God to do something for me.