Trust and risk

I asked M if I am trusted. It seems to me that is the word that is prominent to me at the present. I am so accustomed to being trusted that it is difficult for me to have to go beyond being myself to earn that trust when I know that I would not do anyone a bad turn. I really do love the lord. I might have my failures, but I do love the lord and his people. I try to be faithfull.

I filled in at reception yesterday and perhaps this is just my mind, or perhaps this is his providence, but I noticed for the first time that the word TRUST is on the computer speakers.

I now feel that I have a choice in what could be a life changing matter and trust is going to be one of the factors. Risk will be another. I could go on as I am, but look back with regret. I once told someone who first raised the subject of risk with me that I am afraid of taking the risk, but I am far more afraid of not taking it.

I am therefore praying that the lord will give me wisdom in the choices I intend to make over the next couple of weeks to a month

providence

It may be that in providence some years ago, through a christian site I started writing to a woman. I mis read where she lives and I am glad I did, or a I would not have continued with the correspondence. I grew very very impressed with her character and her experience of life. Now I find that terrible things have happened to her and in my heart, I want to support her if she will let me, so I have sent some emails, but I have also prepared a text message and I am hoping that I will see Gods hand in that.

hands up

Well, I got a Kick up the backside yesterday, and I needed it. I got an email from someone in desperate need. I see the hand of God in how she got the particular email address that she used to contact me because I had not given it to her in the conventional sense ( though I knew she had it) and what she had to say cut me to the core and I need to be like Moses with his hands held up praying over the battle. I do see this as a spiritual battle and I need to be about the business of prayer for her and other matters as indeed I am, but I need to be all the more vervent in it.

A Kick up the backside

During prayer last night, someone mentioned a kick up the backside to get on with it. For me those words were the kick that I needed.

I need to set some things in motion so I will make a start very soon

God is good

God is good, I prayed that I would find my driving license, my passport, and a king james Bible and I found all of them last night. I also found my Santa Costume. You did not know I was santa did you?

The booklet

When I see the things that are going on in my extended family, it seems to me that there is far more reason for me to write the booklet that was suggested to me. I therefore have to get down to it in the next month or two. I also have something else I would like to achieve. I would like to get some formal training in theology

Last weekend

I went to a theatre BBQ at the weekend and I camped overnight. It was fun. the family who camped got drunk, but they did not do anything awful and a I love them anyway. I did feel that I got to know some people in the company better. One of them told an interesting story of how her step father came into her life. I found it very touching.

It seems my yahoo account has been hacked so i need to do something about it.