commit thy way

Just when I am discouraged, I find that I look through things that I kept in a word document and one of those things is a reminder about committing my way to the lord and he will bring it to pass. I had long forgotten that I recorded a devotional about that and kept it. It gave me a little lift for the day.

The Hanna Effect

The great emptiness as usual is still there. However, things I read in scripture remind me that the lord cares and hears prayer. What I want to know is when am I going to get an answer? With that question in mind, I am reminded of how Hannah prayed desperately for a long time before she got an answer.

Fill the Gap

Frankly the great emptiness I feel has not gone away. I may handle it better than I did in the later part of last year, but the truth is, I hate being alone.

Out at the theatre last night was ok. It was good to see dear friends on stage, but I am just so un fulfilled in my private life. I need God to do something out of the ordinary to fill the great need that I feel. once again, I was at the theatre alone. I did not go down for coffee, because I realised that every time I do that, it excentuates the problem. Having said that, I intend to go out for curry on Friday. At least plodding on is better than staying at home alone.

Gig weekend

Last nights BBQ and prayer night was good. I enjoyed meeting those at Gig. One man in particular has a demeanor that reminds me of what I was once like. Shy, bashful. However I can see that he could go to just about any field and be useful with the skill he has. I am just a mucker in. I did feel for the first time in a long time that I actually connected with some people.

Gig

This weekend we have the Getting Into Gear conference for new recruits. I will be attending the BBQ and prayer night on Sunday in the hope that I get to know some of them as I have argued that most of us do not get the chance to really engage with them. I am very sorry about this as I can think of two people who attended this conference in the past, but I did not get the chance to befriend them until much later. One of those people now works with me.